Nobody is perfect. You open instagram, see those perfect travel pictures; dream houses or “perfect parents.” None of that is 100% reality. Those parents will have had their ups and downs, those motivational bloggers will have their down moments… and that’s the norm.
A few nights ago, ironically when the whole country was huddled in suspense over the England World Cup match against Columbia, I was sat in my room on my bed. Just sat there. I was watching youtube videos, but the words and sounds just went over my head. I wasn’t there, I was sad and – not going to lie- a bit teary. I felt inadequate, average, worthless and downright pointless.
I was fed up of not getting where I wanted to be and the fact that even when lowering my expectations of myself, I still hadn’t achieved them. I like to make myself goals, as you can see from my 2018 goals and even the update of them, but there’s a problem. All my life I have been a perfectionist and if I feel like it won’t, or isn’t perfect, I give up. I don’t complete things. I start books but don’t finish, I start scrapbooking, but don’t finish; the list goes on! The point is I was getting fed up and it just all struck me at once.
Another negative aspect of me, is my need for control. There are so many things in my life that I want but feel I have no control over at the moment. Yes, I have control over my education, my finances, my earnings, my job.. but there are some things that aren’t solely my decision and which I can’t start or begin.
The point of writing this post is not just for you but also for me. I need to acknowledge the negative and to try and resolve it with some positivity; even if it’s taken me a few days.
You matter. We all matter. We are all here for a reason, and even when things don’t go our way, we need to realise and remember this. Our struggles, obstacles and pains are lessons and development; our visions and dreams are our motivation and calling. Everything you ask for and want is well on its way and within reach, perhaps just not always in the time frame you want.
You have to start believing and keep listening. Stick to your guts, trust your instincts and don’t ignore them! They’re there to guide you and help you down the right path… the sat nav of your body. It’s time to believe and listen.
We’re all in the same boat and life can be rocky but don’t let yourself fall xxx
The Frugal Frenchie