Diary Post: Feeling inadequate

Nobody is perfect. You open instagram, see those perfect travel pictures; dream houses or “perfect parents.” None of that is 100% reality. Those parents will have had their ups and downs, those motivational bloggers will have their down moments… and that’s the norm.

A few nights ago, ironically when the whole country was huddled in suspense over the England World Cup match against Columbia, I was sat in my room on my bed. Just sat there. I was watching youtube videos, but the words and sounds just went over my head. I wasn’t there, I was sad and – not going to lie- a bit teary. I felt inadequate, average, worthless and downright pointless.

Diary Post: Feeling inadequate

I was fed up of not getting where I wanted to be and the fact that even when lowering my expectations of myself, I still hadn’t achieved them. I like to make myself goals, as you can see from my 2018 goals and even the update of them, but there’s a problem. All my life I have been a perfectionist and if I feel like it won’t, or isn’t perfect, I give up. I don’t complete things. I start books but don’t finish, I start scrapbooking, but don’t finish; the list goes on! The point is I was getting fed up and it just all struck me at once.

Another negative aspect of me, is my need for control. There are so many things in my life that I want but feel I have no control over at the moment. Yes, I have control over my education, my finances, my earnings, my job.. but there are some things that aren’t solely my decision and which I can’t start or begin.

The point of writing this post is not just for you but also for me. I need to acknowledge the negative and to try and resolve it with some positivity; even if it’s taken me a few days.Diary Post: Feeling inadequate

You matter. We all matter. We are all here for a reason, and even when things don’t go our way, we need to realise and remember this. Our struggles, obstacles and pains are lessons and development; our visions and dreams are our motivation and calling. Everything you ask for and want is well on its way and within reach, perhaps just not always in the time frame you want.

You have to start believing and keep listening. Stick to your guts, trust your instincts and don’t ignore them! They’re there to guide you and help you down the right path… the sat nav of your body. It’s time to believe and listen.Diary Post: Feeling inadequate

We’re all in the same boat and life can be rocky but don’t let yourself fall xxx

The Frugal Frenchie

Bold and daring makeup look: Shop with me!

As you can probably tell from the pictures (or lack thereof) of me, I am not one for photoshoots or bold makeup looks. In fact, this is the second time in my whole life that I’ve ever had a contoured face! Because I’m super happy with how the pictures turned out, I thought I’d share with you this bold makeup look in a “shop with me” way. Hope you enjoy a different type of post!

The Frugal Frenchie

Bold and daring makeup look: Shop with me!

All the following products are vegan and cruelty-free (which is so important to me) so let’s get into my transformation!

Preparation

I used my detox clay mask to get rid of any dry skin or blackheads that could ruin the texture of my makeup. There’s nothing worse than putting makeup on and then it being ruined by such an avoidable thing!

Bold and daring makeup look: Shop with me!

Bold and daring makeup look: Shop with me!

Bold and daring makeup look: Shop with me!

Face

After primer, the Arbonne foundation in the shade “Porcelain” was used, followed by one of my favourite products, the setting pretty powder. The foundation has got a vaccum pump, so there is no product wasted! I think that’s just so economically and environmentally friendly that it was worth mentioning.  Oh oh and I didn’t even need any concealer because the foundation just had such good coverage!

That was just for the bare basics, but Emily then added some blush in the tone “Dusty rose,” which I thought made my normally unexistent cheekbones look nice and distinguished. The last touch was, of course, bronzer which really helped my face gain definition in front of the camera.

Bold and daring makeup look: Shop with me!

Bold and daring makeup look: Shop with me!

Bold and daring makeup look: Shop with me!

Eyes and brows

For me, this was probably the most exciting part. As somebody who has hay fever, I avoid mascara during the summer and in winter… well I don’t have that excuse, I just don’t know what to do! I used to love doing eyeshadow in the past, but it was the kids’ glittery, neon colour type of look so best move on by your twenties!

I absolutely loved what Emily did for my eyes. She thankfully knows her stuff and combined several colours that I loved and suited me so well. For eyeshadow, the shades “Opal” was used on the majority of my lid, with the shades ““Sunstone,”” and “Canyon,” combined together in the corners. It gave a kind of night/desert feel and I love it!

I used Arbonne’s mascara too, which can I just say, is an amazing one, made my eyelashes super quick and I was actually putting minimal on as I hate it when my eyelashes feel clumpy or stuck! For my brows, we simply filled them in with a brown brow pencil (not sure which shade but it comes in light, medium and dark)!

Bold and daring makeup look: Shop with me!

Bold and daring makeup look: Shop with me!

Lips

For the first look, I’m wearing a hazel lipgloss and my lips are outlined by an MUA, shade caramel (I think) lip liner. In the second look, we actually combined several shades to match the jumper, but it was fun to create! You all seemed to love this shade on Instagram, although I had never seen myself in such a bright colour!

Bold and daring makeup look: Shop with me!

A massive thanks to Emily who did my makeup, if you’re in the Dorset area and need anyone for weddings or prom, then you need to check out her Instagram and send her an email!

Another big thanks to Amber who took the photos, she’s doing bargain priced photoshoots at the moment, also in the Dorset area. Here’s her page if you’d like to find out more!

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